Because I...
Because I let go of her!
That's right. It's your fault, Yuu-kun.
I abandoned her?
Did I abandon her again?
If it's something that can be obtained, it will be.
If it's something that can't be obtained, it shouldn't be desired in the first place.
If it's a fight that can be won, then throw it down.
Fights that you know you're going to lose shouldn't be started.
Thinking about it, I've always done it that way, haven't I?
Even though you organized them neatly...
Entropy continues to increase.
Decreasing it only for the sake of increasing it is pointless.
Indeed, I agree.
Meeting only for the sake of separating is pointless too.
If I can say that, being born only for the sake of dying might be pointless too.
Kuze.
Was what you did to Miki-chan really a good thing?
Yeah, of course.
Danke, Nagi.
With that, I can live out my remaining time in peace,
Again... I saw that dream again.
What do you want, senpai?
Are you going back?
Going back to Amamiya's place?
Yes, because it's my home.
Stop!
Why?
If you go back again, you'll be-
It's the one and only place I can return to.
I won't let you go back to his place!
Let go of me.
Do you really want to go back?
You want it to continue?
What are you saying at a time like this?
Did weeding become a hobby of yours, Yuu?
Nagi.
I heard. When did you become Kuze's fiancee?
I thought that it was the best method.
A lie that's easily exposed.
That's besides the point. The results are there.
As long as Kuze's desires to separate from Miki-chan are conveyed, the words on the surface don't matter.
It doesn't matter what the essence of it is. The truth is what's hidden inside.
Is there a need to hide things one by one?
Back in our school days, Kuze liked me.
You didn't know?
It's the first time I've heard it.
Kuze knew that I was head over heels for you.
That's why he didn't say anything.
Is that so? I'm surprised that womanizer would chose friendship over love.
That's not it.
He just wouldn't take part in a game he's going to lose.
Surprising. He's the same as I was during that time.
Nagi.
Yuu, are you trying to drag out the game from the past?
Who knows. I've forgotten already.
You're turning your back to it.
I have eyes even on my back.
Plus, the game hasn't ended for me.
Why did you tell me at now?
What are you talking about?
Why didn't you tell me earlier?
You're saying something absurd.
If I had talked about it, would something have changed?
If I had talked about it, would you have done something?
If I had talked about it... If I had talked about it...
Would you have come to love me, who's covered with wounds?
That's....
Such a cruel person.
This is revenge.
This is a modest revenge against you, who threw me away.
But, it's obvious.
Since our time at the orphanage, even if you sunk into an abyss of despair, you would live strongly by yourself.
You've been, from start to finish, someone who resolved to be alone.
That's why there wasn't an opening for others like me to enter.
But you were still the person I wanted to share some of my pain with,
even if it was just a small bit of it.
For that sake, I got close to you.
I came to love you.
I cut my own shoes with this.
Then, what about the bullying?
There really had been bullying.
I used it until it had just the right effect on the righteous you.
"If you hate me, it's fine if you kill me."
That's what Brother said when he gave me that.
That Christmas night.
It's a charm.
When I hold that, I think that I can be released whenever I want to.
That is the single support for my soul.
Please tell me about Kuze-san.
It's better if you asked him himself.
If I could do that, I wouldn't be suffering.
Isn't doing your best and figuring out some way a form of effort?
After thinking about putting effort into it, the result was that asking you would be faster.
You confessed, and soon after, was dumped, huh?
It's a good thing that it ended with very little pain.
He's an adult.
I'm not a child, either!
It's difficult for you two to look forward, isn't it?
I think the current Kuze-san is turning his back to this.
His back has eyes attached to them.
If Kuze were to truly wanted to face the other way, you should remember a single thing.
It's good that you feel confident about him, but don't forget to trust him.
Why?
It's because he's a liar.
A liar?
Just remember that.
Kuze-san isn't a liar.
If he really was a liar, wouldn't he be easily hated?
It's because he's too honest, so they look like lies.
"I don't know anything beyond the basics."
Is that so?
Once I told my brother about Kuze-san, he was shocked too.
Hiro-senpai knows Kuze-san too?
He's a fan of Kuze Shuuichi.
He listened to his album the entire time he was drawing his manuscript.
I see.
"You can see the color of sound in Kuze's violin," is what he said.
Color?
Yeah. He said that it felt as if all of the colors in the world had accumulated there.
I don't know what he's talking about though.
I do.
The sound Kuze-san creates is very brilliant, very deep, and very soothing.
But during the last time I heard him, it didn't have all of the colors.
It felt as if the colors were missing.
Wait a second!
"Isn't he lost?"
"It's different depending on the person, but if he wasn't lost, he'd be able to make some kind of color.
Those that are lost can't paint any colors."
Hiro-senpai sure said something deep.
It's Miyamura-senpai.
Both Miyamura-senpai and my brother looked for the colors they were missing.
Maybe I was the same too?
I don't know about difficult things, but I don't think there's a person that thinks "I'm going to die" without being lost.
Rather, maybe it's because they're lost that they throw things away, different kinds of things.
Throwing things away because you're lost...
Aren't there times when it's tough to hold something precious in your arms?
What's wrong?
Himura.
I see.
Is this about Yuuko?
Yeah.
What? You heard about it just now?
It's not like I was forcing her to keep it secret, so she could've hurried and talked to you about it.
Hey...
What are you saying?
Do you even know what you've done?
Or could you have possibly come here to kill me?
Fine, then. Kill me.
It'll be good if you killed me. It's what I want.
But what're you going to do after that?
You're aiming for the top, aren't you?
Are you throwing away your qualifications as a scholarship student?
That was a joke.
You're not one to bet your stability on something so trivial.
Did Yuuko tell you to kill me?
Yuuko won't say things like that.
Then, you're the one that wants to kill me?
That's not it!
You're not possibly going to say it's for Yuuko's sake, are you?
Good grief, you're such a child.
What?!
Can you see colors?
You're making Yuuko sad again with your selfish thoughts.
Yuuko is, well, afraid to be alone, ever since she was rejected by you as a child.
Why are you saying that you'll take away the place Yuuko belongs to?
This isn't where Yuuko belongs!
Is that so?
Well, that is what you've decided after thinking it through. Do as you want.
Why do you think Yuuko didn't confide in the police, the school, or anyone else?
She's still a girl.
There's no way she could tell others about it.
Everything is going to be revealed if I die.
This. That. Everything.
You're basically saying that you're going to embarrass Yuuko by exposing her shame.
What's wrong? You're not going to do it?
Aren't you going to kill me?
Didn't you come for that purpose?
Now...
You're just a little shit who doesn't even have the balls to kill me!
All you have is your sense of justice; you can't actually do anything!
If you were serious, you could do it, couldn't you?
You came without the balls to kill me?!
Hate me, seriously!
If you were serious, you could do it!
I told you.
If you wanted to make Yuuko yours, you needed to prepare yourself.
The next time you come, make sure you're serious.
If not, I'll kill you.
Hey, Nagi. Did you buy my cigarettes?
G-Good evening.
Kuze-san?
One day, a certain violinist went hiking.
Since it was a road he was used to, he let down his guard occasionally.
His feet slipped and he fell from the cliff.
So he covered the hand that was quite important for a performer, but died from hitting his head on a rock.
I told you to never show yourself again, didn't I?
U-Um, there's something I want to talk-
There's nothing to talk about.
Then, why don't we go eat some soft-served ice cream? I'll treat you...
Can't you just disappear?
What should I do?
What do you mean by "what"?
Separating from each other like this... I really don't want that to happen!
Mizuki-chan, do you love me?
Yes.
Do you really love me?
Yes.
Why?
"Why?"
Why are you there?
Why do you stand there so boldly?
Why do you look into my eyes?
Why do listen to my voice?
Why are you before me?
Why do you talk to me?
Why do you follow me around?
Why do you try to meddle in my affairs?
Why won't you leave me alone?
Why did you and I meet?
Why did you get to know me?
Why did you appear before me?
Why are you so attached to me?
Why do you laugh?
Why are you so meddlesome?
Why are you in such a good mood?
Why are you so cheerful?
Why don't you cry?
Why are you so bright?
Why do you seem to have fun?
Why do you look at everything?
Why do you know everything?
Why do you forgive everything?
Why are you happy about everything?
Why do you make me worry?
Why do you shake me?
Why do you make me lost?
Why are you interested in me?
Why do you make me suffer?
Why do you condemn me?
Why do you make fun of me?
Why do you trample all over me?
Why do you taunt me?
Why do you break me apart?
Why do you tear me apart?
Why do you beat me up?
Why can't you forgive me?
Why can't you understand me?
Why do you make me cry?
Why do you give me hope?
Why do you bring me to despair?
Why do you pressure me?
Why do you trap me?
Why do you disturb my soul?
Why? Why? Why?! Why?!?!
U-Um...
Why do you try to respond?
Because...
Why do you act familiar?
Why don't you leave already?
Why are you still there?
Why...
...do you exist?
Why?
Why is it that something like this?
Why something so helpless?
Why something so stupid?
Why?
I'm not... I'm not dead yet!
Like hell I'd die!
There's a lot of things I want to do, say, and hear. I don't want to die!
I don't want to die!
I haven't... With the violin... Not yet...
Even if I die...
I'll live! I'll live!
I want to live! Still! Still!
I don't want to die!
Welcome back, Yuuko.
I have returned.
You'll catch a cold. Hurry and change.
Yes, brother.
Why?
Why now?
Throw it all away. Liquify it all.
Ef - a tale of melodies. Reutter.
Can you hear it? The true melody.